My God, I have such a wonderful child, a most precious gift I do not deserve. My heart melts into joy each time he looks at me, each time he calls me “Mommy“. He would embrace me and kiss me and all my troubles will disappear in a moment. Nothing else matters except his laughter and the brightness of his eyes. You know I would give him everything. I would give him the world if I can only do it. Gladly would I sacrifice everything for him, even my own life if need be so.
He brought me hope, he gave my life direction and a meaning I’ve never known before. Surely Lord, You have saved me through this child. Through him You have made known to me how much You love me.
But I am not worthy O God. I feel so incapable of taking care of your most beautiful gift to me. For what can I possibly give this child? My failures? My brokenness? My shameful past? What can I teach this child? How can I mold him into the person he was meant to be? What shall a single mom like me pray?
Yet You gave him to me, You’ve brought him unto my cold and shaking hands. Surely You must know my weaknesses, yet You must have also known I would call upon you to help me and to provide for the things I cannot do.
Help me O God. Heal me of my wounds so I may not pass on to Him my bitterness. Heal me of my insecurities that I may teach him how to have confidence on himself. Blot out my sins that he may not be cursed for mistakes he wasn’t even aware of, and so that he can have a wonderful future ahead of him. Fill my heart with love even if I’m all alone. For how can I possibly give away that which I do not have? It is not easy indeed to be a single mom. Grant me wisdom. Grant me strength to face a harsh world so I can provide for him and give him everything he needs. Say unto me Lord that I am not alone for You will be my Husband, and You yourself will be his Father. This child is blessed, this I know, and I thank You for all that You have ever done and all that You have in store for us from Your boundless mercy and unceasing love.
